Where to begin? I haven't posted since...April? This is also maybe the third time I've made an "I'm going to post more" entry, only to possibly post less than before. Between the baby and a new house, though, there is a lot of interesting stuff going on in my life, and I really would like to document it, if only to see the progress we're making as life inches forward one day at a time.
I'm in the process of making the very weird transition to stay-at-home mom. (I say process because even though I've been home with Tess for two months now, I would normally have the summers off anyway, so it doesn't quite feel like a change just yet. Come September, though...that will be an uneasy feeling). Having a job is something I'm used to; knowing exactly what my purpose is and what tasks lie ahead of me in a day and year make it easy to say what I "am." To now have my life, heretofore apparently a separate thing from my work, as my job is an odd feeling. What I used to do in my time off is now what fills all my days, both the weekday "working" hours and the weekends. I know what I'm supposed to do all day, and I know it's important, but I've been having trouble fighting the reflex to justify myself and somehow produce tangible evidence of my work. In short, I need to accept that work and life are more fluid concepts now, and more importantly, that that doesn't make my contributions less. Everyone tells me I have made the right choice to take some time off and be with Tess, and I am thankful for that support. I suppose it's just a matter of adjustment.
In any event, as I make that adjustment, taking care of a baby and making this house our home, it seems fitting to start this blog up again as a companion to it all. So, let's try this again!
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